August 26, 2012

Live...

Sometimes I daydream...
I wonder, and I think
about life.
Regrets pile.
stacked like yesterday's garbage
in the midst of beautiful landfills.
Crystalline.
Decomposing in the corners of my mind.
I cry.
Just as infants when they fall
or break a toy
or want...
I want to live a perfect life.
And as much as I know how
life goes on, and how pain will reappear
just as you finally muster enough courage
to erase its ugly image from your memory
The tears still fall
Just as the leaves, and the fathers, and empires
And then they dry, making room for the growing buds
of Spring


ASW.

Lil Wayne.

Man oh man, oh man,

Where do I begin, I'm mean, what does the "F" stand for
How do you still have things to say, how, how how.

Its been nearly a decade of pure ownership of the craft,
you werent even legal, but you knew you could run this rap shit.
Now we know.
Thank you for every club banger or hood anthem, crazy verse and every catchy ass hook.
Thanks for that Barbie girl, and Jimmy
 Neutron,  he's a fucking genius, and thank you for hearing that in him first,
Now like you he will be forever in our minds, future memories.

Oddly you "brought" us Curren$y,
well to me at least...
Damn,
 "Grown Man", that was my shitttttttttttttt.
like that voice he has just marinated the already tender ass steak of a song.

Carter II....
I'm gonna listen to that shit when I'm 58... and forever
It's so real.
How did a lil nigga fron the NO
asolutely change the fuck out of the rap game,
out of the music industry.

and, it probably happened as a revenge tactic, a smart ass concept.
because nobody wanted to take a southern rapper seriously, nope
so you showed them, you made them take you seriously,
mixtape after
mixtape,
after mixtape.

lord,
and now because of you, mixtapes are mandatory prerequisites for industry entry.


Thank you, if nobody ever told you,
You are the best rapper alive,



(Jay-Z I like you too bruh, I think you might have to just scoot over to share the throne)

Listen Up.

Theres only two ways to feel tomorrow. Melancholy as heck, or really happy...

This is not for the really happy people... bitter people, this ones for you!


Untitled from ADDY G. on Vimeo.


uno!


part 2!!!!!

Hell Date.

I dont see how people hate being alone. 

Me and my mind can have so many conversations, parties, anything, 

Jusat the two of us. 

or one, or how ever you want to count it... 

I have a gift, or lots of them, 

I'm not quite sure which one will make me money , but hopefully it can. 

Hopefully I'll be passionate about whatever I do to make money. 

whatever job I have in 8 years... 

In 5 I want to not know where my life is going. 

I want to be oblivious to getting old. 

I want to be 25 and fly, 

no kids, 

no man... well maybe

but I'd rather be alone, traveling the globe and shit... 

partyin alone. 

Sometimes on dates,

and I use the term loosely because I really dont go on them, 

but on these alleged "dates" there is usually pain. 

Mental pain. 

Which in some cases I think that hurts the most, 

since pain really only ever exists in your minds you know. 

Kinda like a fire. it shoot up from the wound to the brain. 

from the splinter gunshot funny bone, to the deluxe apartment in the sky.... 

So, imagine if the pain began in your mind at host. 

What if the fire started in your apartment

Then your kinda fucked. 

but that's just my opinion... 

Anyways, I digress 

dates! 

Usually on these dates there sits adjacent to me a young man, 

a nice young man, 

cute and shit. 

all I usually think about is how much I would rather be on this marvelous date

alone. 

Not with him

just me by myself, 

watching this movie, eating this paid for meal, with just myself 

Without all the getting to know me hoopla. 

Because he really doesn't care, and he shouldn't. 

He couldn't possibly care about a person he knows nothing about, 

So why are we doing this. 

Why is he paying for this food, 

Because hes stupid... he has to be, 

 Stupid people do stuff  they wouldn't normally do because they are told, or taught. 

So, why would I wanna be with a stupid person? 

That's where my mind goes. 

Everytime I go on a "date"

loosely termed remember... because I don't call outings with stupid boys dates

Or maybe I do. 

Maybe the fun stuff should have a better terminolgy. 

Like..... excursion! 

date

"We dont call em dates no mo in '12 we call em excursions" gucci voice. 

So to all of you prospective excursion partners, 

know this...  

Lets not go anywhere, 

get to know me before you waste your money, 

Lets be able to go out when your hairs not cut, 

when you dont have to pay for my food, 

or ask me what my major is over the bread they give you before our meal. 

Lets get to know each other before the excursion. 

That why they created all these dumb ass social networking networks... right?

Lets use them for good instead of evil 

Peace be with you. 

Nicki Minaj

hey barbz!
-_-

I don't have much to say.
...well I do .
I just don't feel like saying it.

Ill let this guy do the "spoking."

Anis Mojgani  World Poetry Slam Champion && National Poetry Slam Champion 


Shit happens.
and when it does, all you can do is wipe it.
Love is the best feeling in the world.
shake the dust.

Trouble.

#Shoutout to the people that can be themselves.
and not think twice about how other people perceive them.

Trouble is the most stupidest sick board game ever invented.
Whoever created this should be pissed on by Nicki Minaj.

If a player lands on a piece of another player, he can then remove that player's game piece from the board and return it to that player's home space.

Its stupid. the stupid little popping thing decides your fate. no wit needed.
just like life.
relationships.

While in the proccess of attempting to get over stuff.
A wise roommate shared her rules of success in relationships or whatever.
It inspired me and pissed me off at the same time.

1.) Confidence is KEY! 
When beginning anything be confident, It'll make shit better from the jump. No one loves a scary hoe.

2.) Know Your Audience.
While beng confident, you still gotta play it smart... Learn how to talk to certain people. Don't piss off the milk man

3.) Don't Settle
If you cant have the real Louie dnt buy the one for $50 at the beauty supply store... Its tacky and a waste of potential money you could be saving for the real shit.

4.) Go after what you want

Another confidence bit. Do what you want without fear of rejection. Closed mouths get nutted on.

5.) Drink The Hater-ade.

Eff everybody who has a problem, the easiest way to win is to prove everybody wrong. 

*middle finger in the air if you dont really care*

6.) Dont change for nobody =)  K.I.T.

Juuuusst because you date a poet doesn't mean your violets are blue, be you and stay true #homie.

Before you decide you wanna be "wifed" or "hub-ed" for lak of a better word. make sure you jump the broom with yourself first, know who you are before you try not to change who you are. 

7.) Dont. I repeat DO NOT put all your eggs in one basket

Idk who came up with this strange expression. but basically, If you aint married always keep your options open. It sucks to be left with nothing after you put everything into something.

8.) Its all a GAME!

This is serious. For some reason people just can't be normal, everybody wants to be a winner in the end, This is no I Declare War either. this is a craft, Chess not Checkers!

9.) Shit Happens

Good things dont last. Ever. One day the worlds gonna blow up. When it does were gonna have to get over it. You live, you learn. People will fuck with you and one day you'll forget all about them. Just learn never to be in a predicament like that again. 

10.) You're a priority not an option.

If they dont treat you how you want to be treated, somebody will. Go look for that basket with the stashed eggs. They'll get the j-o-b done! Dont settle for the lames, or beg! never never beg!

Dont kiss the hoes in the mouth!

=) 

I love you all 

--Addy

#subtweet

I've realized that I suck at talking.

This here is the only possible way I can express myself.
so here it goes...

I'm sorry for everything I did to you.

I'm sorry for always being there.
Waiting on you hand and foot.
I'm sorry for allowing you to be my world...
For not letting anything else to matter to me.
Sorry for ignoring all those texts and calls if they weren't from you.
I'm sorry that I get under your skin.
And for making you scream my name.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry for falling in love with you. #pause
or at least starting to.... I think
*covers eyes*

I don't know you guys,
I guess I'm kinda happy tho
cuz theres always a silver lining...
You introduced me to a different kind of feeling
a happy one!
I finally met that giddy little high school girl writing hearts on her notebook.
because I ignored her all this time.

Its gonna be really hard to get over you.
yup.
but I can do it.
Everybody has to do it at some point life... right?
Thats why Beyonce has so many songs about it.
and I have them all in a playlist.
You must not know bout me.  *points to the left*

But Ill be okay.
maybe somebody will come along that I like.
and they wont think I'm weird.
they'll appreciate my obsession with sex.
they'll think I'm dope...because different
just like you did,

and I'll try really hard to be happy.
with them and without.
and for that I'll have you to thank.
because you've taught me so much.
How to love.

That was your goal in the beginning remember.

I'll never forget you.
and I know you'll never forget me!
because I'm super dee duper.
and every time you walk in those cool kicks.
the 3m reflects the light.
youll remember my smile that you like soooo much =)
shordie.

I know you hate it when I subtweet.
goodnight *kisses forehead*

blah blah blah enough with the mushy gushy!
dont judge me


I LOVE you all
--Addy

I'm ashamed at my neglect.
but I doubt anyone truly cares but myself...
I haven't been tweeting.
tumblr  - _-
But...Im back!
...at  least for now

I think everybody's beautiful.
In their own special way.
I find myself daydreaming throughout the day...
Staring at all the different people.
...creepily

How dare anybody call someone ugly.
well!
I've called plenty of people ugly.
but I don't think I meant it.
Who says a big nose cant be intriguing.
or small lips aren't cool.
Rihanna is magnificent.
and so is her forehead...

I just think whoever decided to make all people different was a genius.
*snaps for God*
and DNA!

Ive been obsessed with Shakespeare yet again...
for the past couple of weeks.
intrigued by this man descriptions of beauty.
and love.

Lately,
I've been intrigued with love.
how people feel about it.
how they choose whom they share it with.
and how insane the whole concept is.


Sonnet 16:

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

 Admit impediments. Love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

 Or bends with the remover to remove:

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark

 That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

It is the star to every wandering bark,

 Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks

 Within his bending sickle's compass come:

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,

 But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

If this be error and upon me proved,

 I never writ, nor no man ever loved.



    -William Shakespeare  

In order to love. you must find beauty.
...in my understanding.

Find something beautiful about that person.
Their smile.
Their drive.
Their voice.
mind... body... soul...
etc.
because there is no other way this twisted fucked up feeling
would be able to has this much power.
smh.

I just think its cool.
how everybody has this ability to be beautiful.
It is up to you however. to accept the beauty that you were given
and to share it with someone.
and to search find something beautiful about others.

Im pretty sure your day might be a little less sucky.
=)
#nohomo


I love you all
--Addy

The Ambitious Girl.

Dear future boyfriend...wherever you may be,

This is how happy I want to be.

--When we begin.

--When we get..."old"

--&& When we rule this here world.

aka. the worlds most beautiful couples.

(in my eyes)

#thatisall

I LoveYou All.

--Addy

My face dont work right?

heyy you guyss!

so0o0
that was my homie j cole up there
check him out on hovas tour.
drake ily...but eat your heart
jkjk


welll anyy who
this niggas spoke some...
...how do u say
tru ass stuff.


first things first.
i want everybody to get they ass up
look in the mufriggin mirror
and say
Everybody: "Hey"
and start getting to kno urself.

I say that shit..
cuz alotta times.
nobody knows themselves
and who the really are... or supposedd to be.
and now's the time... i think?
to at least start.
getting to kno the person you have to be with evrey subsecond of your life
..urself

welp enough with the sentimental crappp.
=/

aight so0o
the topic of this here thing
is love yourself...
give urself a hug!!!!!

okay...
so0o u might not be muhfuckin gorgeous right?
people might not comment on ur pics sayin
people: omg. ur so0o0o0o00o0o pretty
right?

too bad...

OORR
u may not have that DONK!
or those tig ole bitties
righhhht.
dudes might not be like
dudes: shawtay you thick/phat ass shit.

sorry?

heyyy
u might not be fresh as shit.
rockin the cool as nobodyelsegotthese shoes
ladies might not be hanging off the tip like
tip hanging ladies: ohhh u got so much swag papa

tuff shit?

or last thing....
u might be a little thick.
u mayy not fit it a fuckin size 4
u might not have tiny little thighs and shit...
and u may not be able to put on knee boots cuz the zipper wot zip

suck that shit up?


wtf u gonna do about it.
wtf CAN u do about it.....
nothing!
so0o live like u got the prettiest mufrikin face
phatest booty. and the like u the freshest nigga out here.


trust me.
if god intended on u being fresh...
he woulda said
GOD: LET THERE BE FRESH
then out woulda popped u
butt uh.
maybe u popped out with the Frugal bunch
or the smartness

its okay to be who u are.
ugly people rule the world!
so do pretty niggas...


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PSA:
were all in this together.

and on the topic of beauty...
i seriously believe there is beauty in every single person out there...
one mans trash is anothers treasure.
...i always say

i mean look at jay and b.
shits beautiful.

as for weight isssues
more cushion
for that puuuuuushhin
=]
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s0o0 yea...
first u love urself
then you find somebody that will love you
thhhenn u guys can have "fun" hehehe
'loving' each other's
ugly no titty havin fat non.freshness

i guarentee ull have a good time
=)

i love you all!