ASW

I found that last excerpt in a journal
one of the many journals I have lying around this place
filled with refuge and solace.
words penned in ink and tears.

I thought I'd share that with you,
Thats the first time I put a pre-written piece on here
I enjoyed that feeling so, eventually, I'll do it again.

I wrote that last year at the end of August,
I can't believe how time flies.

Time...
How it heals all of our wounds.
Time, Time, Time
I'm taking physics now
I find it interesting learning about how things work.
It's like math with a purpose,
 You know, because regular math your just learning these stupid equations
for seemingly no reason at all
a reason your professor probably assumes is "fun"

...but physics,
Physics takes those dumb equations and tells a story
 of why things are the way they are.

Everything makes sense.
Hopefully I get an A.

*sigh*
I just think its hilarious how life works.
One second you're on the top of the world
and before you know it you're stuck with your nose in the dirt.
We think we know how things are gonna turn out
but we really never do.
we never do...

Just be thankful for what you got
and what you had
and what you can have,

I'm thankful for what I got,
I got exactly what I was looking for

August 26, 2012

Live...

Sometimes I daydream...
I wonder, and I think
about life.
Regrets pile.
stacked like yesterday's garbage
in the midst of beautiful landfills.
Crystalline.
Decomposing in the corners of my mind.
I cry.
Just as infants when they fall
or break a toy
or want...
I want to live a perfect life.
And as much as I know how
life goes on, and how pain will reappear
just as you finally muster enough courage
to erase its ugly image from your memory
The tears still fall
Just as the leaves, and the fathers, and empires
And then they dry, making room for the growing buds
of Spring


ASW.

Bobby Brown.

This one is for Whitney.

We look at celebrities, we admire their success, we imitate their style, and gawk at their beauty.
We pry in their public lives, tell every secret they weren't even able to whisper,
and we expect them to be normal.

We expect them to be sober in a world where they are in a petri dish under our shitty microscopes,
poking and blinding.
While they're screaming for help, in search of a listening ear that can keep secrets locked away.
In a tower free from paparazzi, or screaming fans, backstabbers and brown nosers.
but "mo' money mo' problems" they say...

And then on the total opposite end of the spectrum we have homeless people,
Beggars and "crackheads" and "junkies" how we like to call them.
We dont give a shit about these guys,
We automatically assume that they'll be fine because they're poor and poor people need drugs,
Poor people deserve to be unhappy, because they must be weird and lazy if they can't get a job,
We clench our purses, hold our noses, and try our best not to make eyes contact.

It's funny, the people who need our attention dont get it,
 and the people dying for some space, gets clenched tighter.

We saw Whitney at her finest,
then she wasn't fine anymore,
and we stopped caring,
we laughed and mocked her,
forgetting all the things she did for us, all the sounds she made... for us.

Now we don't have her anymore, thankfully now we can remember.
Remember who she was... flaws, and perfection, just like we all have.

Britney Spears Ladies and Gents




the first comment under this is, "Bobby Brown's version is better. "
smh
when will we learn...

Bugs Bunny.

My life has just changed. 

as it does every second. 

every time I meet something new. 

I decided it would be a great idea to accompany my already horrible gift wrapping skills 

with a documentary. 

Netflix has the greatest documentaries. 

Nextflix is the greatest. 

I should make a documentary on how great Netflix is. 

...anyways. 

I digress, back to my life altering documentary!

LIFE IN A DAY.

videos from all over the world from tons of people on one day. 24 July 2010 

24/7  as I like to imagine the inspiration came from. 

Up until about an hour and a half ago I didnt realize how large this world really is. 

How unimportant my life issues are.

There is no excuse for me to ever be sad... 

Life, in my non-expertise opinion is all about the pursuit of happiness. 

The running away from all things we fear, by running towards the things we love. 

No matter where in the world Carmen San Diego went, 

I'm pretty sure she made sure she was happy. 

Happiness. 

Happiness?? 

What does it mean to be happy?

Lets see what the fine folks at Google think... 

hap·py

   [hap-ee]  Show IPA

adjective, -pi·er, -pi·est.

1.

delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing: to behappy to see a person.

2.

characterized by or indicative of pleasure, contentment, orjoy: a happy mood; a happy frame of mind.

3.

favored by fortune; fortunate or lucky: a happy, fruitful land.

4.

apt or felicitous, as actions, utterances, or ideas.

5.

obsessed by or quick to use the item indicated: a trigger-happy gangster. 

Ambiguous. 

To me, happiness is comfort, and seeing other people not unhappy

Art makes me happy. 

&& Chipotle. 

French Fries. 

Great love stories... 

Attention makes me really happy. 

I imagine if I were to ask 10 different people what makes them happy I would get 11 different answers. 

Everybody has a story. 

Its amazing. 

Think about how many books there are in a library.

How many tweets are tweeted... 

How many people ther are in the world. 

All with there own set of heartaches and heart hugs.

I'm grateful to have seen this movie. 

There are people living perfectly fine without. 

Without money, without Chipotle... 

without love. 

Look around ladies and gentlemen, and pay attention to the documentary that life edits for you... 

Directed by your creator... which ever you believe. 

I realize today that there is so much more I can see. 

I will see. 

Money ruined the world. 

Thats the only thing that drives us, not love. 

Just money, well, The love of money drives us. 

The love of things. 

We are not products of our environment, we are consumers. 

You know what sucks, when people say they are thankful for being more blessed than another person. 

I believe we are all equal

 money is the only thing that separates us, and water. 

I wonder how those kids feel when people video tape them for infomercials...

I'd slap somebody if they came all up in my shit.

Merry Christmas Christians. 

Happy Hanukkah Jews. 

Every body else... happy holidays.

Gold Digger.

Ray changed my life.

Everything about it drives me wild, how the world really works.

His brother really died from falling in a tub of water…..

Now we can save people from A.I.D.S.

Provided the proper resources we can do anything,

We just need to put the pieces of the world together.

We were given the single legos…. by God.

Or whomever you believe,

We now have all the necessary resources to create our own Star Wars Galaxy

Its crazy how energy really does go from one piece to the next.

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about how much work my mother does,

And how I’ll be when or if I ever have kids.

How awesome my kids are gonna be…

because I’m awesome.

And that’s how people act just like their parents.

One spark of energy passed to the next.

Everything that happens is a scene from a movie.

And the fact that we can’t see how truthful fictional movies are

Is kinda the measure of their true effectiveness.

The computer you’re reading this on is a dream that a real person had.

A real person clocked in 9-5 to design this screen.

Everything is something and we fail to realize this.

Crazy how people think that twitter is life.

When 60 years from now, inevitably twitter buzz shall die down

And life will go on.

Rose will have lots babies.

And they’ll grow up and do some dumb shit we don’t understand.

People fall in love.

I haven’t yet decided how I’m going to document this.

How I think people should remember love in my opinion.

I think of shit during the day

So, I guess this’ll be tomorrows random mind drive.

I cant wait until I’m old and I can sit and recollect on life.

In a trailer, or a barn with a yard and a garden and a pond.

Somewhere for me to getaway and find something new to do everyday.

From hunting to gathereing.

Plucking flowers and baking pies.

Or however life may be 50 years from now. 

absence of evidence is not the evidence of absence.

Theres been a lot going on in my mind lately.
I'm pretty sure thats why I haven't visited you in a while.

Well I'm here now so I might as well suck it up and have fun.
*word to Amber Cole*

okay.
Well I've recently discovered the light of my life.
Somebody who makes me think.
Makes me seem that I'm not crazy for being who I is.
ya dig? lol

His name is Huey Freeman.
1/2 of the Freeman brothers.
When I say I love this show. I mean it.
I've been watching these people for about 19 hours now.



It kinda puts everything in perspective to me.
All the jumbled up thoughts and rebutes that normally go through my mind
are right there,
on my screen. in clear daylight/midnight.

Apperantly, I'm the only one in the history of the world who hadn't
been blessed with this show. but
Better late than never, I always say.
But the only thing is,
If everyone has seen this, why do people still act the way they do.
The wrongs of society are clearly highlighted.
Clearly illustrated for us to see the stupidity of the shit we care so much about.
Mocking the ignorance.
Yet we still are ignorant.

I guess stupid really is what stupid does,  Forrest.


I feel like we have all the tools we need to go forward as a people.
and we will,
just like we always do.
from huts and darts, to spaceships and Jetsons.
but our state of mind will never alter.
The same cycle that I see in my lifetime.
Is the same my children will see.
and there children etc.

We will always have the straight shooter,
the castout,
the radical.
the jezebel,
the King.
the smart ass nigga.

Change is constant
but Thought is fluctuant.

I'm going to be who I am everyday of my life apparently.
and you of yours.
So instead of worrying about shit,
I dont give a fuck about.
sports, calculus, politics,  racism
Imm just do me.
should so you.




you can not buy individuality at a thrift store,
footlocker, or supreme.
we cant put on a kufi and be deep.
we must be truthful too ourselves an then we will change the world.

groupthink

I love you all
Addy

EVOLUTION.

Forrest Gump came on today.
... such a great movie

Speaking of groovy flicks,
apparently Lion King is 3-Ding and shit,
talk about a great idea!
how much more epic will that stampede scene be.

Its kinda weird seeing how lion king came out, in 2 dimensions...
and we were perfectly fine with it, until we weren't.
like we took a step further, hypothetically.
Now were about to take Simba to a whole nuther muh fuggin level
yaaahh mean?

Its crazy.
As humans we have come such a long way from math without calculators and dirt roads,
from Harriet to Barrack.

We complain about the lives lost in the war,  and the damage done by 9/11
but can we only imagine the tragedy of World War I or the American Revolution, for that matter.
Reading the paper the morning after the sinking of the Titanic,

History is a beautiful thing,
because we keep going.
change.
We build on what we learn, what we find, and discover.
We create things to make life easier,
We set trends and evolve to fit the environment around us.

Evolution.
The slaves, flappers, hippies, robots.
What is the legacy our generation leaves?
What will like be like when our grandkids meet Sallie Mae?



Back to Forrest =/ 
The man responsible for sparking these random deep thoughts...
Forrest lived through so many things so many decades, so much change.
All those dead presidents,
So many different Jennys...
and he loved her all the same, even though the world around him changed,
Mr. Gump remained the same man on the inside.
Which to me is the most beautiful quality a person can obtain.
Self acceptance.
So much more than confidence.

The power to accept the world around you, and the world inside of your mind.
and being able to allow them to dwell in your life simultaneously.
Self acceptance.

Im convinced I will own a robot before I die.
The world isn't over yet.
We have such a long way to go.
This trip is about to be gnarly as hell...

I wonder how small will ipods will be.

Miss Jackie.

If I had a soap box, I'd be standing on it. 

...right now. 

in the middle of my cul-de-sac for all to see and hear. 

Earlier today I decided it was time to peek at my bank statement, 

I try to limit my balance checking down to twice a month... maybe

 for this reason specifically, 

I got kinda sad that I spent so much money. 

angry because I had to spend any money at all, actually

as opposed to sitting on my dough like a fat ass goose egg

????

I got so pissed at Wachovia for allowing me to buy gas. or new contacts. 

or Wa-Wa for my muchies. 

all very important things, vital but expensive as hell. 

and all the while, as I'm bitching in my mind 

I still have quite a bit of pocket change to last me through the fall. 

*ahem*

If I had a dollar for every time I bitched about... a totally irrelevant topic. 

I'd have enough money to fill that void Wachovia right now. 

Why is it that we can only see ourselves poor, 

when really we're fucking rich as hell. 

metaphorically. 

Think about it. 

How many times have you heard, or said... 

"I hate my life" 

"nobody understands me"

"ma! there aint no food in the house!! can we go to chipotle???"

etc. 

Everytime you start to bitch about bratty shit. 

just imagine if your house got caught in a forest fire

or if your sister married your step father. 

If you couldn't remember your last meal . 

If your baby was ugly. 

or if cancer stuck its fugly nose in your life. 

If we could all just remember that we are blessed. (highly favored)

and all that jazz, 

stop worrying about the love you don't have,

or the clothes you cant afford. 

and just live your life the best you can 

without complaints, 

without regrets. 

and just LIVESTRONG.

I dont exactly remember where I heard this from but, 

Imagine life is a movie, 

here you are, an extra. 

one of those 'pick your nose in the back of the scene' extras

you see that irrelavant nose picking scene pan as the highlight of the movie... 

but in actual reality that movie could have gone on with, or without you. 

That how life is. 

This is not our show, we are just little extras 

we must pick our battles wisely. 

one booger at a time.

RIP Miss Jackie 

;)

I Love You All 

-Addy

Chronic.

I know.
scold me. stone me.
Its been about 3 1/2 - 4 sad lonely months without me.
I'm pretty sure I missed you way more.

So to catch you up and apologize.
*clears throat*
I broke my mac (circa April)
I just got it fixed. (circa last week)
There hasn't a day that has gone by without me thinking of 'the curious case'
How incomplete I was without Tasha. [my mac]
My pod. [yet to be named]
and my dear blog.

I tried to fill a void with twitter and tumblr.
but that shits gay.

anywho hoes...
I'm back!
and hopefully better than before.
*end*

alotta shit goes on in my brain.
Im twisted.
"...sicker than mad cattle" even
and I'm glad I can share my thoughts again.
---------------------------------------------------------->>

Netflix is some superfly shit.
like whoever invented that should win awards...
have lots of hoes and money.

I've spent the last couple of weeks revisiting my childhood.
Watching lost episodes of Rugrats, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers.
(none of that new fancy gay power ranger shit...)
Annie, Free Willy, Mary-Kate and Ashley movies
Movies that shaped me into the great anorexic, orphan, Oracle lover that I am today!

but it made me think about the grand old days.
the simple life.
back when your biggest problem was
deciding what lunch box would look appropriate with our book bag...
or saving up enough change for the Ala Carte' line...
or convincing moms to let us re-up on the newest installment of pokemon cards.
...or digimon whichever your preference?

Since when did we start caring about shit that is irrelevant??
What was the catalyst that killed the 'innocent and naiive but fun as shit' gene??

"Back in the days when I was young, Im not a kid anymore, but somedays I sit and wish I was a kid again...."

Those were the days. 

I had big dreams. 

Me and Barbie were supposed to be in Paris. 

schmoozing with hot french boys. 

dancing 'Swan Lak'e in packed houses. 

not a care in the world... 

nothing except happiness. 

dreams. 

What were your dreams??

...and who the hell woke you up from the beauty of creating your own destiny?
and then introduced you to the evil of a dream deferred??
that bitch.

When people call life a bitch.
no!
you're the bitch that made life treat you this way because you stopped believing in her.
You stopped letting life take you exactly where you wanted to go.
Where you dreamed you could go,

We started caring about relationships,
gossip.
money. cars. hoes
blah.

I wish I could go back. and milk my freedom.
instead of having to pretend to time travel every time I get intoxicated.
...every time I blank out. saying whatever comes to my mind.
like kindergaten.

Dreaming I can fly.
knowing that wherever I land is exactly where I'm supposed to be.

If you feel me, you should understand the relevance of that there picture.
#ThatIsAll


 I Love You All
--Addy

Nicki Minaj

hey barbz!
-_-

I don't have much to say.
...well I do .
I just don't feel like saying it.

Ill let this guy do the "spoking."

Anis Mojgani  World Poetry Slam Champion && National Poetry Slam Champion 


Shit happens.
and when it does, all you can do is wipe it.
Love is the best feeling in the world.
shake the dust.

Mrs. Knox

I had the best 4th Grade teacher in the history of the world man. 

Brandywine Elementary Standuuuuppppp!

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

                              

                                    The Road Not Taken

                        --Robert Frost. 

I apologize for my lack of post yesterday... 

I had ....er? 

A soaring good time last night with my homies. 

I just couldn't stay awake long enough to humor you with my presence.

#shoutout to the homie big Melly-Mel 

from melwood.

 =)  

Sooooo anyway doe.

That right above would perhaps be my favorite poem of all time. 

...and I've heard lots and lots of poems. 

Robert Frost did a really good job describing an open minded person. 

Unique and unafraid of failure. 

an Individual. 

Someone whom I aspire to be. 

My mother is prolly my favorite inspiration. 

She's probably the most judgmental person I know.

and that makes me such a better person.... lol 

We just spent the last 30 min arguing about the "whorey stupidity" of Paris Hilton

and her addiction to 15 sec narcotics.... 

=/ 

and while she continued to rip poor Paris to shreds

I had to pause and think about why I felt so strongly about defending her. 

People do bad things. 

People don't follow rules... 

If people didn't follow rules

 I  would probably be braiding Harriet Tubman's Great great great 

great granddaughter's hair in the stable right about now. 

eh?

I don't think were supposed to just do what were supposed to do. 

I was placed on this earth to do what I wanted to do. 

To create my own path for life. 

breaking rules along the way. 

Retracing my steps... 

or I might recalculate my destination because my stupid GPS thing always be trippin

Parents dont understand man, 

teachers really are out to get you, 

The dryer steals socks, and yes

the tree still makes a noise even when nobody is around to see it. 

This aint the life that I chose... 

but this the life that I'm living. 

One step at a time. 

Ill scream eff em all. 

cuz in the end all I have is me. 

and my fucked up mind.

Dec, 27 2010 B.C.

--I love you all. 

Goadome.

I had a really good day.
a really good coupla days.

sorta.
I'm kinda just now learning to not let other people affect my mood.
*hmph*
So I'm happy.

Lately, I've been appreciating people who don't let people affect anything about them.
The way they dress.
How they act, or the things they say.
How to think.
Who to like.
Who to be...

Its important that you feel comfortable with yourself.
I don't think I was cozy until this semester.
...and Im still movin around trynna find the warm spot.

Whether I feel like dressing un-girly like
or whether I feel like hanginout with como-sci nerds.
You just gotta #kanyeShrug

If your boo ain't treating you like they used to.
don't change for them.
Compromising yourself is the worse thing somebody can do.
in my opinion.

#kanyeShrug
Those lame people telling you that you cant do something.
darn skippy you can do it.

#kanyeShrug
to those stupid folks who don't think its okay for you to fuck other boys.
...or girls
eff those guys
who think its okay for somebody to be sad.
and un-cozy.

And to those sneakerhead and music gurus
...everybody can't be as cool as you.
everybody's gonna buy the new jordans that you want to be exclusive.
nike's gotta make money some how
and everybody's gonna hop on your favorite "underground" rapper if they're a trending topic
-__ -
#kanyeShrug

 Now...I'm not the biggest Nicki fan.
but I respect what she does.
and how she does it.
and although she dissed the shiznit outta K.I.M.
I feel like she had cool things to say in the beginning of the interview.

everybody's not gonna love you.
It would be nice.
but it would be even more creepy.
just make sure You....love you some. you
cuz in the end thats kinda all ya got.

I'm all I have at the end of the night.
After the party....


Phonte follows me on twitter guys!! <@photigallo>
#shoutout to @CarlittaDurand

I love you all.
--Addy

the Rubiks Cube

There was a time way back 2 years ago.
... when i was obsessed these here things.

I bought like 4.
different colors.
i downloaded cool/ uncool games on my computer.
i even attempted the 3x3x3

I've moved on to way cooler things
blogs are cool?
right??
waayyyyyy more cool points.
right????

Its amazing how niggas grow.
I used to be a baby.
then a toddler.
a regular annoying ass little kid.
then a big kid.
there was that awkward adolescent stage.
the awkward teenage stage.
and here i am now my awkward young adult stage.
and thennn. boring adult stage
and then you diz-ieee etc etc

I just wanna know what kinda boring adult imma be.
When i grow up i wanna be like waka.



he's truly and inspiration.
young! i cant stop playin this shit back.
#shortbusshawty
ftw.

I was gonna go a whole different direction for this post but shit!
I cant concentrate.
...and btw im sorry its been so long since i posted
i just bullshit my life away
...that shit is time consuming =)

and remember you guys
#WWWD
(what would waka do)
=)

man ill come with real shit tomorrw
promise?

I Love You ALL!
--addy

The Eiffel "Tower of Doom"

btw.

i do a lot of shit

...when i sit at home and not do shit.

If youve uploaded pictures on facebook... 

ive seen them.

If you blogged... 

ive read it. 

You break it you buy it...

blah blah 

Today, during my normal internet surf...

I found a trend in the content i was stumbling upon. 

LOL. aka.

 "Lots of love" -- like old people say it. 

albums, movies, blogs. etc. 

all about love and couples and anniversaries and shit. 

turn ons, and foreplay, puppies?  yadi yadi

and I wonder....

what is it about this "thing" ?

that makes people "oopit stupid" or head over heels.

and all that. 

how do they know when they've fallen. 

why did they bother to call it falling?

My bestfriend in the whole wide world

whom btw has fallen in love... 

is celebrating his 2 year anniversary soon.

the same girl 2 years?  and a smile he still wears. 

smh 

The #wolfpack. 

have both fallen into the pit of love as well 

Dre for a year and some change....

and Ju for almost a year...

and both of which somehow someway,

even long distance hasn't faltered their seemingly fucking "marriages" 

smh. 

and i can go on for days about these great ass couples. 

who seem to complete one another. 

who seem more happy than. the non-couple person. 

people like me..

thats who i am...the single friend.

ive never really been on the other side so i cant much complain. 

but i wonder.... u know?

how that grass would feel on my feet. 

if it really is that green. 

but for now.... 

i guess im fine over here. 

in the non couple person grass. 

"living single" kinda happy. 

kinda bored tho when all my friends have to tend to there grass. 

but. #ithappens. 

and it shall one day for me. 

when im ready. when this grass turns brown or when some really hot gardener comes 

and we make our own great ass grass =/

woohoo. 

i hope i really mean it when i ever say it tho. 

but until then... 

i really enjoy dancing to Beyonce in the club. 

=)

enough of the gay stuff.  *sigh*

I "Love" You All

--Addy

2010

i love miley cirus/ hannah montana
...and i love  the hannah montana movie
and i love her little song.
the climb.mp3
#gethip
not only is it a catchy ass tune...
its so inspirational #nohomo
lol

but today when i was sittin around bullshitin'
i stumbled across a couple of websites
...that i wish i woulda found last semester while i was in angst and all alone
but i read some articles about three very influential people.
all of which contribute to my everyday life... sorta

the first person you might not kno...
unless your like a serious cool person lol
but the name's Brian Donnelly bta KAWS.
a cool ass artist straight outta jersey... with a few dollars and a spray can
long story short.

he used to steal bus ads and make them cool. and now hes doin big shit.
clothing lines, toys, art...
and btw has adorned the screen of my lovely phone since its birth
... u know since im not ballin to actually buy shit =]
*snaps* for KAWS


next up.
you probably know this chick...
Ke$ha. aka. Gods gift to pop music.


not only is she effin hot... her songs are wayy to cool for school.
my type of lady.
she started off hosting paris and nicole on their Simple Life show. with her poor ass family
now. this hoe got dollas in her name... fuck with her.
her album Animal is the shit.
and i "wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy" because of her.


and last and probably most recognizable
yea.. im not even gonna say his stupid name.
but i cant help but love this guy...
not only is he totally awkward standing next to any "swagged out" rapper
..but he delivers(to me) like no other.
and despite his "overnight celebri-dom"
his undeniable talent has always been around


...im not gonna tell you how tight this man is. cuz you should already know.
but im just sayin he worked damn hard to get where hes at.
twisting the game for more than the "juice" aka. money cars hoes.
this lil canadian/ memphis-ian niggas gotss alot more to rap about.
this nigga got pulp and shit.

...and i say all this.
to quote from this corny ass inspirational ass movie
"life's a climb, but the view is great"
and it is.... 
one big as mountian. 
and in order to get to the top of that bitch...
if we ever wanna get there we gotsta work hard 
...sweat and shit. 
or you can stay where u at, at the bottom of your life mountain 
... and wonder about all the great shit your missing out on. 
*kanye shrug*


[end sentimental moment]




...two balls are always better than 1 




I Love You All 
-- Addy

When old people attack. *cue Pokemon theme song*

I really enjoy my random titles.
... that have absolutely nothing to do with wat im talking about.
and u love it too =]


anywho.
these past coupla days have been great here at the "T"
bitches is out w/ no clothes.
and the bait is swarmin.

i just wish i wasn't as strange at times.
... i scare people.
i scare myself.
but thats neither here nor there.
... ill be fucking strange till the day i die.
and even then ill be freaking weird.

Ive come to conclude that theres a little bit of...
weird/crazy/strange/unstable/abnormal/odd/uncommon...
"curious"-ness
in all of us.

The baddest "jank"
is often times the craziest motherfucker of them all
... shes the one who'll Jasmine Sullivan your ass.
make really bad jokes. and make you laugh.

The sexiest nigga.
is more than likely really fuckin weird.
... he probably like to watch soap operas.
or Dr.Phil

#imjustsayin
we all have a bit of strange.
some just more than others.
some just have a really great "im cool mask"
...some like myself.
wear their weirdness on there sleeves.
of their face for that matter.

My friends may look fuckin cool.
but there all like me.
#weird
&& im the least strange.. believe it or not

Me.
My favorite movie is Titanic.
... and im watchin it right now.
Ive only really liked maybe 2 boys in my whole life.
... and Im pretty sure they're oblivious to that fact.
(even though i try pretty darn hard to let him know... =| )
I eat fruit snacks when im not hungry
... I fall/trip/stumble when i see boys.
.. and i act even more strange when i meet new people.
...i smile - alot.
i mostly attracted to tall weird looking boys.
i love basketball.
and
i name every peice of machinery i own.
ie. Gustav, My car....
and Simba. my new Phone



peep. the Kaws. =]
BBM:315358D0

I Love You All
--Addy

...hint of lime

hey u guys.
i been gone for a minute now im back
...wit' da jump off.
-_-
get suummme.
lol.


welp alrighty thennn.
sigh.
hello friends,
...and foes.


foes.
eff you!
=/
but thanks for reading my blog.
=]

anywho
welcome back sweet cakes.
i got some applesauce on my spoon i need to lick off.
so0o0.
this weekend was great!
i was two steps away from getting a tattoo on my rear.
...lls.
but seriously
i KNO it woulda been cool u guys!
anddd.
i ate the best wings in the world.
and i saw where jCole went to high school and wat not.
Fayet-neam ftW.
lls;
HAPPY b-DAy Dreaaa!

too bad we missed the aggie eagle thingy
i heard it was dope...
dont tell me about it.
=[


but on some real ish.
its funny how
the same stuff kindsa sorta happens in life over and over again.
like.
when u were little
u kept gettin in trouble for the same stuff.
like.
u keppT talking in church
or u just HADD to punch little girls in the arm.
or u couldnt help to forget i before e on all ur spelling test.
u kno shit like that.

and then u grow up.
sally just so happens to keep falling in love
with boys who like her better with a blackened eye.
...
stuff like that.
its like u can help it.
i wish u could.
maybe u can!
i refuse to let my life keep repeating itself.
eff!

i wish u guys...
i really wish i could tell u wat i want to!
but i dont want u to judge me
lls.
ill just keep it bottled in for a bit
until i get over it.

until the next thing makes me sad.
=[
lol

It sucks how i refuse to write papers on time.
and how it seems like ive been in school froever but havent learned hardly anything.
darn sure not enough to take midterms in a week.
smh
calc ftw!
=[

i hate the caf.
and all things caf like.

i hate having to put on flip flips when i have to go pee
---and shower.

i hate that theres a possibility that a lil bug might join me in my shower
=[

i hate that i cant wait til the last minute to make up my work like High school
i was never a stifler for deadlines.

i hate that everybody in college is so gorgeous all the time.

i hate girls that think boys really like them...

i hate boys that think girls arent hip on game

i hate that i must trip or fall at least twice a day on average.

it disheartens me that my idea of a homecooked meal is papa johns or honey wings

i hate that i just found out i snore ridiculously loud.

i hate it when stuf that used to be tons o fun -- ain't fun no mo'

i hate it when i got to the mall and always buy jeans an t-shirts when i know i never have nasty girl club wear.

i hate whoever invented nasty girl club wear.

i hate that Gustav's not here with me.

I hate Sprint

I hate when i tell people im 17 and they say awww.

i hate not asking my mom for money anymore

I hate the way my dorm room smells.

I hate that i lost my swipe card thingy already.

I hate that i live here.

i hate that i dont get 8 hours of sleep ever anymore.

I hate when i miss the shuttle and have to walk all the way to class.

i hate my major!

i hate when drea and juliet talk about there significant others.

i hate lovey dovey stuff

i hate that i only hate it cuz im not in love-- smh.

I hate that i cant see my best friends everyday
=[

I LOVE SKYPE!
Adrian Shanay
&&

I love you all
--Addy

...Say Whats Real =/

Lately,
I've been feelin kinda different.
Like...
carelessness has just become apart of my DNA
Like.
A goth or something cool like that.


For instance.
Lately,
I have no problem going the whole day without unwrapping my hair
or.
or.
I dont think I can remember the last time
... I cleaned my room.
or cared whether or not my butt looked big in my jeans. =]
lls
or cared whether or not the bun joint called me...

Its kinda hard to beleve that I spent years and years caring
or obsessing for that matter
... over stuff that people don't give a gosh darn about.


Eff it.
Eff it all.

I guess from now.
until...
Hopefully Spring 2013!!!!
I'll be doing some serious notcaringaboutshitexceptformygradesandshit-age
and I'll have a gosh darn great time doing it.

Like.
seriously though.
Females.
How much time do we spend
Obsessing.
Over boys and shit. (or girls for that matter if ur into that kinda thing)
Or Love??
ugh.
The clothes,hair,nails,makeup,time,money,fakeness...
and all that jazz

Im pretty sure o boy could give a rats ass whether or not u get gel.or.acrylic
...just paint them shits.

And dudes
we know you stayed up all night
brushing them sportin waves
;)
shining them busted ass Air forces.
smh.


puppets.
Thats what we are!
There goes the MAN again
slapping niggas in the face with his cock again....
LOL-ing like hes watchin effin youtube.
Watching little stacey cry because jack cheated on her.
or. Rofl-ing as Timmy tried to act cool as he waits 3 days to text Suzy.

I'll tell you like i told you all before.
Live your Life for you!
not for Jack. not for Suzy.
but for yo dumbass
...


like
i just realized this yesterday after i finished
seeing a man about a.... cock. =/
lls.
sex is great.
but. it seriously isn't that serious.
dont believe the hype!
.. i mean
be you.
pussy will come to u!
dont chase it.
dont let it take over ur life and shit.
condoms aint cheap?
lls

...but seriously.
all this stuff.
is not that serious!
and from the past coupla weeks we all kinda know
first hand...
life is too short to focus on the bull shit.
bull shit really grinds my gears
....
damn

ok.
so i think im done for today rappage.
i just wanna share the realest shit i seen all day.
now u guys all know my strong love for dance ...



This shit makes my eyes get wet.
:/


ps.
go to!!
http://mftor.blogspot.com
=]

--Addy